What do you think and do you have advice for me?

This is some crazy talk. Seriously. One it was pretty hard to follow, you don't tell the story well. Basically the only thing I got out of it is you tried to break your foot so as to have a reason for not completing yardwork you didn't have the tools to finish. Darling, your mentally ill. It may or may not have been brought about by your parents, but that doesn't change the fact you are really disturbed. You need to seek therapy from a trained professional. Go and talk to your school counselor or any medical professional right away.